IHOP Girl: Day Off

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Day Off

Yes! Thursdays are our days off, and yet you can still find me in the prayer room (if not to pray, than because I get great internet connection there!:-)). First of all, I made my three day fast!!!!! Yippy!! It was awesome, and I never cheated once, actually I think that cheating makes it harder....
Secondly, I've been approved to sing in the prayer room itself!! But it was kinda hard 'cause none of my roommates did, so I'm just keeping it on the "down low" if you know what I mean. Still I can't believe that I made it, I think that God is actually trying to teach me that it is ok to be good at something, because I felt so unworthy when I found out.
Thirdly, in reply to my dad, The force that corvette man experienced was 92809.2 N *m/s. I think that that is correct, but I'm sure that if it is not I'll be informed. My roommates couldn't believe that my dad made up a physics problem, and that I actually tried to solve it; we all had a really good long laugh last night.
Anyway, I'm actually spending my Thursday reading Anatomy & Physiology, and Nutrition (along with updating my blog). I hear your condolences, but how else will I be prepared to go back to school in the Fall?? I may be insane but I'm the smartest insane person you ever met! :-) Maybe later I'll take a nice hot bath....*sigh* Oh yeah, that is definitely going on the agenda! Oh, as a complete change of subject, KC has the strangest weather patterns on the face of this earth. Every Thursday we have been here, we've had blue skies, sun, and warmness! We may have the worst weather in between (i.e. snow, rain, cold...), but come Thursday, the nice weather is back. I don't get it, but that is ok I'll never argue having great weather on our days off. Well, until later...

1 comment:

Jess said...: Jess! You made it!! CONGRATS! I knew you would -- never had a doubt. Don't feel unworthy! And sorry I didn't comment sooner -- it's been so crazy here. Like you, I am insanely busy. Wanna come home early, and go live out in the woods with me? I'm taking back all my logs that the neighbors stole, so I should have enough to build...oh, I don't know...a corn crib or something like that, lol. Anyway, we could form the Sisterhood of the Woods or something. No school, no work, nothing but clean country living. Like re-enacting! Yay! Heather was asking me today, "When's the first re-enactment again?" She's so excited. Wish you were going to be here for Letchworth. Wish you were here right now! I haven't forgotten my promise to buy you lunch and take you to the movies. :-) Gotta run for now, Jess, but hang in there and have a great day! Love, Me; 12:15 PM

Movie Night In...I love a good movie!

Mega Mind
Taking Chance (Will make you cry like a baby)
Charlotte Grey (A bit of a different take on Nazi Germany)
Series - Merlin (I LOVE BBC)
Robin Hood (Okay, a love Russell Crowe, you'll have to understand that about me...)
Kingdom of Heaven (Chuck full of acting power with an epic tale)
Miss Potter (Such a great film! Story of the creator of Peter Rabbit)
How to Train your Dragon (Possibly my favorite animated movie ever...I'm like a little kid, I watch it over and over)
Buck (Sundance winner, Biography of Horse Trainer, heart touching)
Lost in Austin (Modern day spin on Pride and Prej.)

Life as a nurse...

Great words by Reb Jeff: Vayishlach: Facing Death

"Rachel died. She was buried on the road to Ephrat — now called Bethlehem. Jacob set up a pillar above her grave. It is the pillar at Rachel’s grave to this day."–Genesis 35:19-20

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vidui http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shiva_(Judaism), and preparing the notifications to the community, feel like little fragments of the sacred. I have been entrusted with the care and tending of the most powerful, complex and difficult emotions that a person can experience in life. I have been made, in some small part, a guardian of the memory of a departed soul — a life that touches upon many other lives.After dropping off my older daughter at her high school this morning, I made a stop at Treasure Coast Hospice http://www.tchospice.org/, a remarkable organization that sets a very high standard for the loving and respectful care of the dying. There, I visited a lovely man whom I have seen a few times in his hospice room. I sat by his bedside and listened to him (in full possession of his faculties) as he told me about his worries about his family, the support of his wife after he is gone, and the future of his children and grandchildren. I was deeply moved by the way he put any concern for himself — even while facing death — in a distant backseat to his concerns for his family. When my own time comes, I can only hope to have his awareness of the way that one life can touch so many others.Also at hospice, I visited a woman I have known for the past two years — a dear soul who is a former Jewish religious school director. I sat with her, too, singing psalms to her as I listened to her heavy and labored breathing. I have no medical training, but I have come to know the sound of a person who is close to death. The body begins to fight for each breath as it slowly looses it grasp on life. As I held her hand and sang, I realized that being a rabbi is no protection against becoming one of the people caught in the web of connection. I, too, am changed by the loss of a life that has touched mine.Later in the day, I met with a couple from our congregation. She had just learned that her brother died yesterday in a car crash. Coming to terms with the loss is made more difficult for her by the fact that she and her brother had not seen each other or spoken in five years. Sometimes, people think it is easier to mourn the death of someone who has moved out of your life. In my experience, though, it's harder. Grief is magnified by wounded love and regret. I have no magic words to say to ease the pain of mourning. All I can do is listen, become a vessel in which people place their stories, and offer compassion.Actually, there is one more thing I can do. I can have faith that "all I can do" is all that I need to do. It is enough.In this week's Torah portion (Vayishlach) Jacob watched Rachel, the love of his life, die in childbirth. He was overcome by grief. Jacob had worked for his cruel uncle Laban for fourteen years to earn the right to marry Rachel. Now she was gone. Because she died while they were traveling, Jacob had to bury her by the side of the road. He built a pillar of stones on the spot to mark the place as sacred.This is what we all do, in one way or another, when death enters our lives. We grieve and our hearts break. We wish that we could continue to walk along the path of life with our loved ones forever, but the dead cannot fully join us. We have to leave something behind in order to resume our own journey. So, what do we do? We mark the moment as sacred. We erect monuments — both in cemeteries and in our hearts. The stones we place on top of stones remind us that a life may end, but its sanctity is forever.The Torah says that the monument Jacob built for his beloved continues to stand until this day. A life that touches the lives of others never ceases to send living reverberations throughout the web that binds us all.